http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/inde...ageID=26852632It's a nice day today but things just don't seem right. Although I only met Aaron about 2 years ago everytime I went to Washington he would come up with his son Austin and hangout with us. He was constantly taking pictures of me with him and with his son and we always would tease him that he had a "Man Crush" on me. He was always concerned that he was being a bother but a bother was the last thing he was being. I felt flattered that I was like a Hero to him and his son and that's why his passing hits me even harder. If only we could reverse the hands of time and I could have talked to him!!! My words may have hit him in a different spot and made him realise his pain can be beat!!! Pains worse enemy is time. Time ceases pain. Just sometimes the pain and confusion is so hard we don't feel the healing time gives. I don't have a cold but my nose suddenlly is getting stuffed and my eyes are beginning to tear. Why couldn't he have called me or why couldn't I have been there??? I can't believe that on my next trip to Washington I won't see him, do an interview for him, or take a pic and hangout and just shoot the shit. I have helped people in distress before that pain was overpowering. Numerous times my words have helped save lives of fans who were virtually unknown to me. My simple words have cleared the dark cloud pain creates and allowed the healing process of time to kick in. But....why was I so useless this time? Aaron who was a dear friend to me and my friends in Washington. I can't believe that I won't be seeing him on my next trip to Washington. I look at all his pictures and can just see him and hear his voice. I wish this was all a dream.... I wish I knew he was suffering.... I just wish there was more I could do. I know how much he loved his children especially Austin. I know he misses his children just as much if not more than his children miss him. I pray for him and his family every night but I know no matter how much I pray he will not come back!!!
Life is so harsh sometimes.... Moving on no matter what. Let's take the lesson Aaron has given us, not to take for granted the things, the simple things we have in life. Waking up every morning, giving the ones you love just one more hug, just one more kiss, and just one more "I love you" And most of all, pain can be beat with the help of time. We can't bring Aaron back so let's just cherish the time we had with him. Instead of wishing for one more day, one more hug, or one more picture.....let's appreciate all the numerous hugs and time we did have with him. Yes, there is pain in my heart that he won't be there on my next trip to Washington but instead of grieving that, I will cherish all the times we did hang out, all the laughes we did have, and all the pictures we have together!!! I also have pain imagining how much Austin, his other two children and his wife and family will miss him, so I will turn all the pain into the power of praying and pray that they will have strength and power to move forward with their heads up. Let's conquer pain and help Aaron rest and make him proud of us.
Aaron....I know it's hard but please rest in peace and trust that everyhing and everyone here will be okay... we miss you to death but we will do our best to go on for we will all join you up there someday. I will do everything in my power to help you family especially Austin. I know you miss Austin and wish you could be here with him but we can't reverse what's been done. We can only move forward. So my dear friend rest...although we cannot replace your love and what you did for you family, please trust that we will do everything in our power to see that your family will be fine. This is not a goodbye or a farewell but as we say in Japan "Itterashai" which means see you later, til we meet again in that better, much better place called Heaven! I'm going to miss you!!!
Everyone please when you have time, say a prayer for Aaron to rest and for his son Austin and the remaining family to have strength to move on. Thank you!!!
