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thanks to every one for the replys and the well wishes...everyone expect brad shonuff, he can go fuck him self.
to anyone else that was wondering why i was coming here for advice...this forum is called ask the fighters...hence why i was coming in here asking if anyone had any expierience with inner ear injuries and trying to continue training and fighting.
this is completly fucked, i actually also suffer from a congenital heart condition that ive had to have two open heart surgeries for at the ages of 18 motnhs and four years old, i even clinicley died twice before i was due for my first oppporation but was saved by my quick thinking mum who got my heart going again then got me to hospitol in time. i wasnt allowed to play contact sports as a kid and even had to were a protective pad on my chest when attemping to play ball sports. this was quite hard to deal with as a child and i was so proud of my self for becoming a fighter and proving everyone including myself wrong. but now it seems that this is going to hold me back further and im so fucking upset right now im shaking with rage and sadness. if it wasnt bad enough that my fitness could never be that which was required to be elite i am now laboured with this as well, and the thought of not being able to do the one thing that gave me a feeling of self worth and belonging is killing me. i will have to calm down before making any decisoins but right now i seriously would risk the potential injuries, just to be able to have one more fight as life kinda seems pointless for me without training or fighting. i have a tatto that says "count your blessings" inside my bicep which relates to the fact i have been given a second chance at life, and i did truely consider my self to be blessed, but im having trouble making sense of all that right now. i think im gunna go hit some beers.
sorry for ranting, i'm just a bit emontional right now
once again i appreciate the well wishes from you all and thank you taking the time to read my post and reply to it seriously.
cheers
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Last edited by bob : 05-06-2008 at 12:07 AM.
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