Today was one of those days in the gym that just pisses you off
BP: 5x5x204lbs./92.5kg. - I bloody failed on my fifth set!!! I couldn't lock out of on the last rep. and that doesn't make any sense. I usually have an easy time locking out no matter the weight, but I struggled with this one for 10-15 sec. with no success. I was bloody furious!

I waited 5 minutes, mobilized some anger and blasted through a sixth set without much trouble, so I did what I came to do.
Squat: Pyramid to 265lbs./120kg. Failed. - Again I failed my last set! After rep 4 I could
feel that I could do the last rep, but I somehow overdid it and went down too fast, bounced without getting my back with me and had to let it go on the rack. Again I was furious and cursed at myself. I waited 5 minutes and tried again, and this time I did the same shit on my third rep! 120kg. will be on the schedule again next week.
BOR: Pyramid to 198lbs./90kg. - no problems here.
I'm pissed about the squat. The last few weeks as the weight has been going up, I've been confronted with plenty of problems with my form:
1) I forget to clench
2) My bar position is too high and I really shouldn't be using the pussy pad.
3) I let my back do too much of the work - I tend to lift my body out of the hole without moving the bar much to start with, and then I end up using my back for much of the lifting. It's a bit too much of a good morning.
Especially 2 and 3 together bring me in trouble as I now find that I tend to be fighting for balance and form instead of just firing my muscles for the win. Sometimes I'll hit good form and I suddenly feel in balance and can just forget about all that and place all my attention on getting up. It's a problem that I don't feel comfortable with low bar positions, but I'll keep working on getting that thing lower - my center of gravity is a problem at this stage and it will only get worse as the weight gets heavier.
As for the pussy pad - I tend to train in a wifebeater or a rashguard and without the pad the contact hurts, burns and leaves my skin red and blue. What do you ogres do? Use a sweater? Grow enough hair on your backs to soften the touch?
Is a towel really better?
Too many frustrating experiences in the gym lately...
Maybe it was wrong of me to switch from 2.5kg. steps to 5kg. steps on my 100kg.+ lifts? I don't know...