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I'm going to get a little personal in a Sherdog thread which is sort of a scary prospect. I don't care though because I am going for a life long dream next April and I need all the motivation and help I can get.
I want to start a thread documenting my rise and fall and now my road back to the top.
I have been overweight my entire life. I have always been a stress eater and a food addict. I really sympathize with alcoholics and drug addicts because if overeating were illegal id be doing life.
I just always dealt with depresssion and tragedies through large food consumption and I am wanting to finally, once and for all, end this cycle.
I have the distinction of losing over 50 pounds 3 times. Thing is, that means Ive at some point gained it back. The last time, 6 years ago, I went from 195 up to 285 pounds. I went from being in shape to not being able to walk a 1/4 of a mile.
I have pics that u would not believe. Long story short, I was engaged, had a child with this girl. Through a twist of fate of tragic events we broke up and turns out she had lied to me the whole time and the kid wasnt mine *OWNED Right?* anyhow, that spiraled me down into a dark abyss that I could not pull out of. The only thing keeping me going was food. I had no idea how to get myself out of this and I just drifted, getting more and more depressed, getting heavier and heavier.
Finally the fog lifted and I was determined.
Long story short it took 4 years but I lost 100 pounds, and in April ran the Country Music Half Marathon in Nashville in under 2 hours which was my goal. 3 weeks before the half marathon my dad passed away suddenly and tragically. He was only 55 years old, his dad died when he was 56. So u see a pattern of early death here.
Since that day, I have found myself falling back into old habits. I am once again very depressed and seem lost and I am back to doing poorly.
I have went from 185 back up to 215 and I HAVE to stop this now.
I am wanting to do the full marathon next year in April but my training has to start now and all the bullshit I've been doing has to stop NOW before it gets too late.
I am not in a horrible position as I still have a lot of my running fitness. I can still do 8 miles etc but not as fast.
SO anyway to cap this novel off, I need some motivation. I need somewhere I can post whats goin on, my updates, my results and feel like Im being held accountable for what I do. U guys on here are some of the harshest critics ever and i like that.
Does anyone have any stories or anything motivational that I could use, tips,advice etc? what to do when I get stressed/depressed and immediately want to reach for comfort food?
Im starting July 4th 2008 at 215 pounds:
Im bout to head out for a 5 mile run and I am determined to get my diet under control.
Im going to weigh every week and post the results.
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