[rickdog]

Graedy, I'll be prayin for you brother. I'm sorry you are in so much pain. My father suffers from the same ailment plus Sclerosing colingitus sp? which is the disease Walter Payton died from. Anyway, much sympathy for you and I really do hope that it all works out for you. You do inspire people with your good attitude amidst the pain and sickness. Don't give up man!

[graedy]

Thx, guys. And my very best wishes to your dad, rickdog. This disease fucks you up slowly but surely. It humiliates you (shit yourself...), it causes more pain than i could ever imagine, the medication makes your body weak and makes you look disgusting (bloated face, akne...), it makes you unable to leave the house because you always need a toilette in reach. And after some months of living under such conditions your selfconfindece, your pride and your will are so small that you have to search for them. The worst thing was that there was no perpective that it will ever change.
But now there is hope and im ready to fight some more months (at least i hope so).
Im broken but the pieces dont stop figthing ;)

[MMA Fun]

Man i said it already but i have to say it again, ur a F#@%#$ inspiration to me and i guess many other guys in the forum, keep goin bro i belive in you..

[graedy]

I just write it down, the way it is.
At first all i wanted to do was writing a lifting log. I knew from the beginning, that the Colitis would influence my lifting (i thought , it would influence it like my nutritriton, sleep...). So the state of the disease was naturally a part of this log. I would have never thought, that it goes that bad, that it fucks up my whole life. Now its more a "sickman´s diary".
But i still got the hope, that its gonna be lifting log one day again. This will be the day, when i really got my old life back.
And that this log is an inspiration for some people gives this fucking disease a positive aspect. This way the disease is not completely useless. So thank you very much tp everybody, who gets something out of this log. And thanks for the kind words.
Next wednesday, the study starts.
Untill then i will try to survive Round 2.
BUT
In Round 3 i will knock the Colitis the fuck out!

[rickdog]

Keep us posted man...........We are all pulling for you.!!!

[graedy]

Today i started taking some medicaments i have to take for 14 days before the study starts and i will finally get the new medicament and start reducing the cortison.
So this was the bell for round 3.

[graedy]

Todays physical activity:
Walk (Doc told me not to jogg because of the small impacts on the body every step does, and he is right) with the Dog for 6-7 km. My legs are so weak and small, that im kind of unstable.
BW: 82 kg

[HULKAMANIA]

Go get it, dude. You're an inspiration.

[graedy]

Yesterday i experienced again why i should always have a toilette in reach, even hwen i feel good.
My luck this never happended to me in public so far. But the humiliation is still there. Im also bleeding like a pig again. 4 days until i get the new medication. if this doesnt help as well...

[graedy]

Todays examinations, for the study, i gonna take part in, showed, that the colitis is as bad as a colitis can be. The whole Colon is fucked. This is pretty bad .
Tomorrow i will start taking the new medicament (hopefully its not a placebo (50% of the studymedication are placebos)).

NEVER SURRENDER!