[graedy]

Thx.
Im off of the next medicamet (the leukemya one) due to sideeffects. CRP: 75 (normal 5). Cortison 30-0-20.
Bad: Much pain, going to toilett very often, musclecrampings, feeling sick
Good: Almost no bleeding, dont feel extremly sick ALL the time (makes me able to eat).

Now, there is only one medicamet left. I will probably start taking it in 2 weeks.
Talked to my Doc about the sideeffects of longtime cortison-use.
Its bad to take more than 10 mg for longer than one year.
I take an average dosage of about 40-50 mg for about one year now.
Its time to get of this stuff!

[MMA Fun]

Have u been able to train latelly??

[graedy]

No. Im pleased when im able to leave the house (to go to another place where a toilett is in direct reach). Most of the day i sleep or sit arround and wait till the sickness gets a bit better, so i can eat a little bit.

[graedy]

Had a Gastroscopy on Monday. That was hell. Everything cramped because its very sensitive at the moment. My Bowel and my dupdenum are also ignited from the medicaments. Should go away on its own because i dont take the medicaments anymore.
Tuesday and this morning were unreal. I had to scream like mad everytime i was on the toilette (and that was often).
Now its much better.
And because i was so fucking pissed because of all the pain and bad news, i did a little workout.

- 17 FullRom chinups (man, i was suprised)
- 10 Towel pullups (with short deadhangs) left over rght
- 9 Towel pullups right over left
- 50 Pushups


i was so gassed

10 min break

10 mins at very slow pace on the Concept II Rower.

I would like to keep on exercising to deal with my anger. But i cant . My body is a complete mess.

[graedy]

Almost blacked out on the toilette today because of the pain. Heavy bleeding. Sometimes i have to go to the toilette 4-5 times in one hour. Its absolute hell. Cortison up to 40-0-20.

When i felt a little better for some time, i spent 10 mins on the Concept II Rower. Then 50 incline push ups. I feel like dying most of the time but i have to do some kind of exercising (if you can call it like that ). Otherways i would probably kill myself.
Bodyweight: 80 kilo.

I really dont know whats going on. The cortison is up,up,up. But it still gets worse. The pain is abnormal. There is no perspective. Only one medicament with hardcore possible sideeffects. Show is over soon.

[Ted-P]

Originally Posted by graedy

Almost blacked out on the toilette today because of the pain. Heavy bleeding. Sometimes i have to go to the toilette 4-5 times in one hour. Its absolute hell. Cortison up to 40-0-20.

When i felt a little better for some time, i spent 10 mins on the Concept II Rower. Then 50 incline push ups. I feel like dying most of the time but i have to do some kind of exercising (if you can call it like that ). Otherways i would probably kill myself.
Bodyweight: 80 kilo.

I really dont know whats going on. The cortison is up,up,up. But it still gets worse. The pain is abnormal. There is no perspective. Only one medicament with hardcore possible sideeffects. Show is over soon.

Man you should be resting up.

[MMA Fun]

"They can't keep a good man down" thats what an old boxing trainer used to tell me, dnt give up mate, ur an isnpiration to us all.

[graedy]

Thanks for the nice words. But i have reached my limit. If i knew that it will be over some day, i would keep on fighting. But theres no perspective at the moment. All life offers for months is pain and sickness. I want my life back!

[graedy]

Today i got the confirmation, that i am going to take part as a testperson in a study for a new medicament. Its the second study with this medicament and in the first one, they had really good results with it. So there is some hope, that this nightmare will be over some day.
GOGOGO!

[Funkster]

You're a tough fucker and do bloody well considering all the shit you have to deal with, I hope this new medication works out for you.