[graedy]

- 25 mins on stationary bike


This fucking diarrhea deosnt want to disappear. Bleeding also good a bit stronger. But still ok. Im getting stronger, better cardio and better shape. Even the weight goes up recently. Still no real life possible and some tough days in between. But this only means that theres room to improve. "Why complain?"
Plan on posting pics every 4-6 weeks in order to motivate myself.

[fat_wilhelm]

Hang in there, man. You're accomplishing a lot and you look great, especially w/ those shorts on.

[graedy]

Cant wait to visit a commercial gym wearing those and screaming and grunting while doing a 20rep squat set.

[bacon]

How did you get your feet to stick to the wall like that??? Graedy = Spiderman

BTW, it looks like bacon got ahold of those shorts.

[krellik]

You are looking fit G!

[graedy]

Thx guys. When Im able to keep the direct abwork up (depends on inflamtionlevel) I will get my sixpack back in the next couple of weeks. Im back to training for 8-9 weeks now. Im pleased with my progress although I cant train the way I would like to. But 8-9 weeks mean Im still at the very beginning which means that theres still lots of time with good and easy progress to come. It didnt happen the way hoped it would. I didnt get the UC under full control with any of the new medication and then went back to 100%. Instead I gradually fight my way to a better and better life. Training is a good fixpoint for me. As long as Im able to train and progress, things are still on an ok level and this time in my life is not just lost time. Alhtough I would never really call the last years lost time as it was a fucking hard experience that will definatelly help me with my further life. But it was a time of permanent degress in all parts of my life. Now to see some progress happen again is great.
What brings me a bit down at the moment is that I decided to cut down drastically on the time I see my ex. Now that my health is better the heart can play a more important role again. And well, I cant deal with us just being friends. I thought and hoped I could. But I cant.
I fucking love her. But I dont want her back as I couldnt be the boyfriend I want to be for her. This would even kick my ass much more than not seeing her at all. It was such a relief when she finally broke up 9 months ago as I felt like a complete looser although she never complained and never did anything to make me feel like it.
I miss her very much. So I dont have much drive at the moment.
Whatever. Dealt with harder things. Keep going till the pain disappears... If possible I will spent more time in the WRC where all the bad thoughts dont have an entry ticket. I dont run away. I just cant change it.

[Alon]

Dude you're looking ripped, also I love the shorts, I have a very similar ripped pair which I can't seem to throw out, part of me feels as if they have superpowers or some shit. It's good to see that you're progressing with the training, goodstuff.

As for the chic, I see where you're coming from with not wanting to be the "loser" boyfriend, that being said, loving relationships, to use a cliche, the sort which you "grow old together", implicitly require that you can depend on one another, and that you shouldn't have to hide that need. I'm not trying to tell you what to do because I see what you mean, but you don't always need to be that guy. Anyways I'm done trying to give relationship advice, I don't have the best track record, so back to the gym!!

[graedy]

Back to the gym would be nice. On monday/tuesday everything collapsed. Extreme sickness, heavy bleeding and pain. This means back to antibiotics, back to babyfood and back to bed. At least for a while. Spent the last two days like that and I hope to be able to train again on sunday. But noone knows....

Yes. The shorts are like Samsons hair for me .
All in all everything comes down to getting the UC under control...

[graedy]

Already feeling much better. Seems like the Antibioticstrategy pays out.
About the realtionshipthing: you got a point, Alon. But me and my ex already had this. Over 50% of our reltionship I was sick. Still we made a very good team, had a great relationship and so on. But its also the nature of the disease. Imagine how you felt the last time you really drank too much the night before and vomited all over the place. You want to be touched in this state? You want to touch anybody?
After some weeks you want to but you cant enjoy it. Its impossible. So this really makes you flip. Its like dieting hard with a box full of your favourite cookies everywhere you go.
Better to have no cookies available at all in this time.
I addition you notice how she misses you touching her. I was really a guy who loved to cuddle and stuff. Pre-UC. Damn. The hearts desire....

[Alon]

Originally Posted by graedy

Already feeling much better. Seems like the Antibioticstrategy pays out.
About the realtionshipthing: you got a point, Alon. But me and my ex already had this. Over 50% of our reltionship I was sick. Still we made a very good team, had a great relationship and so on. But its also the nature of the disease. Imagine how you felt the last time you really drank too much the night before and vomited all over the place. You want to be touched in this state? You want to touch anybody?
After some weeks you want to but you cant enjoy it. Its impossible. So this really makes you flip. Its like dieting hard with a box full of your favourite cookies everywhere you go.
Better to have no cookies available at all in this time.
I addition you notice how she misses you touching her. I was really a guy who loved to cuddle and stuff. Pre-UC. Damn. The hearts desire....

Fair enough dude, I see where you're coming from. For the record, while I may be giving the advice, I'm definitely not the expert about this and do the exact same mistakes I warn everyone else about, ahh well live and (hopefully) learn.