[bacon]

Originally Posted by graedy

I just did

- 20 chins

And thats my first PR worth being posted in the PR-thread.

Woot!

[graedy]

Thx.

- FS 5x5x65kg [My, I would call it mid back, seems to be very weak and makes me bend forward and that makes the weight slide. I mean, its fucking 65kg. WTF?]

- Dips 8xbw/8x15kf/8x20kg/8x25kg [Now that was nice. Deep, solid reps. Yammi.]

- BOrows 2x5x87,5 supinated/ 2x5x102,5 pronated [Did them in front of a mirror this time, to check form. On the pronated ones I bend forward to paralell and my body moves really little up and down when I row. Reps are almost textbook. Expected them to be much more sloppy than I had thought before I watched them in the mirrior. Positive surprise. On the second pronated set, I did a little mistake. I relaxed to early when I put down the weight. Lower back pain. Is gone now but thats the reason why I didnt do a 3rd set.]

- Lying reverse on an incline bench and doing some lateral raises for the posterior delts 2x12xdont know the weight of the dumbell


This workout was ok, although I got completelly cleaned out the night before and I felt like vomiting most of the time. At leats I could have watched myself in the mirror throwing up while I had a over 100kg barbell hanging from my arms. That would have been funny. But it didnt happen this time. I decided to keep my condition to a level where I can still train. I will use all medications I still have available (which is about one or two ). Which means that if it drops below, Im off of to the hospital for a chemo with Ciclosporin A. While its not sure that this is gonna help. But I wont go back to bed. Not this time. Now theres only one way: upwards. Although I cant have a life at the moment I want to at least feel alive for some time. I need something to look forward to. It might be scrubby that the only thing I can look forward to is the next worship in my weightroomchurch. But I cant change this at the moment. I keep on trying. But this war wont be won in a couple of weeks. Its a long and dirty war. Its won by the one who lasts longer. To win such a war one needs allies. Working out is such an ally.

*runs at the UC in a rage* "Come on, hit me! Hit me, you lousy piece of crap!"

There will be now remis. Maybe I will loose. But I will never, ever surrender!

[graedy]

Had to spend the whole day on the toilette or in bed. This really makes me fucking angry. When I feel quite alright I can never be sure if Im not fucked up again the other day.
Added the other antibiotic (Ciprofloxacin). I still plan on keeping on training. Sunday will be next session. So one more day to get the condition up. Im quite confindent that the 2 antibiotics togehter will do the trick. The "tendon-thread" reminded me that I should take it easy. So I plan on lifting heavy (dont laugh - heavy is a relative term ) for two more weeks and then switch to a high rep routine for a while (2-4 weeks) and then return to the heavy lifting.
And now I will try to get some sleep.

[graedy]

Feel much better today. So I had to do something apart from my lower body flexibility program I do every day now.

- 20 chins (didnt have the 21st rep in me)

Edit: I just thought about the old times when I could eat like a maniac. When we were about 16 our whole class wnet on a trip to Berlin for about a week. We didnt have a Burger King in our town those days and Berlin had about 5-6. So one of our meals we had at Burger King every day. Me and a friend ate the exact same thing there every day (among all the other stuff we stuffed our faces with over the day).
- One Double Whopper with cheese as a menu (king size of course)
- One Double Whopper with cheese (Yes. One Double Whopper with fries wasnt enough.)
- One Big King (Ouhyeah! Two Double Whoppers with fries were still not enough.)

Today I looked up how much calories we consumed in one sitting those days. About 3500. Its really unbelievable. My ****bolism is crazy today but in my puberty I didnt carry one gram of fat while consuming amounts of food which Im not capable of eating half it today.
On the last day we went for 3 Double Whopper cheese in one sitting but both collapsed and left about one quarter of a Double whopper in the restaurant.
I was weighing 75kg those days and YES, we spent all our money on food while others bought souvenirs and stuff.

[graedy]

The combination of the two antibiotics kicks in. although I only take only half the dose of Cipro than I took against the sepsis. Lets see how things develop.

- ATG-Squats 15x67,5/5x77,5/3x8x67,5 [Those felt great. Very solid. Good groove. Wonderfull!]
- Pullups 8xBW/8xBW+15kg
- Horizontal Woodchoppers 12x[3]/12x[4]/12x[4]+4kg
- Side raise 10x10/10x12
- Hammercurls both arms at the same time 2x15x20kg

MY trainingspartners pussied out today. They want to go tomorrow. So I will go to the weightroom tomorrow again. I plan on working on my DL-form and watch after the others (They need me as a drill instructor ). On tuesday I plan on upping my Bench. I will aim for 110kg.

[lena]

Hello my friend. I am sorry I have not checked in here as of late.

Reading your last few posts I have the feeling that your spirits are up relatively. I hope you feel as good and strong as you can under the circumstances.

I am sorry that there is not much I can do from the other side of the world. But know that when you are in my thoughts from time to time, I say a prayer for you.

[graedy]

Thx for the support. You couldnt do anything for me, sitting right next to me, so it doesnt really matter where the support comes from. If you come to the point in training or even life when you think: "No, more!" Imgine graedy coming over and kicking you in the butt

- Deadlift up to 5x3x115kg [I know, I know.....]
As I felt kind of fresh I did my benching today (not the best idea...)
- Bench up to 105kg [failed at 110 - at least a 5kg PR]
- one handed pull up practice: some onehanded hangs, some pullups with one hand grapping a towel (wrapped arround the bar) on the lowest part and pulling up with the other grapping the bar), some one handed pullups with my friend supporting me (he said that he just pushed very little but I know that Im still far a way from the one handed pull up

All in al my healthcondition is unstable but most of the time quite alright. I feel perfectlly well for some hours and then within minutes all of sudden I have to run to the toilete every ten minutes, loose quite some blood and my whole inside feels like someone has forgotten his lighter in there . This makes going to places without a toilette in reach impossible. But a tleast I can train (something develops in a positive way all time aka "more weight!") and prepare myself to jump back to life with a big bang. The last fotos were from the hospital in april. So in order to bring some positive vibes back in this log I will soon post some actuall pics (without a whole christmastree of infusions going into my neck this time ).
UPWARDS!!!!

[graedy]

- Shrugs 3x15x150kg
- Incline reverse flies (for the posterior delts) 2x15x10kg
- DBOHP 16x20kg
- Some TRi and Bi work for fun

The plan is set. Soon there will be a complete deload week. Then 2-3 weeks one day to groove into 20 rep squats and two day training more BBstyle to pack on some muscle. Then back to heavy basic exercise lifting with focus on lower body. I havent made plans for the future for years now. Feels great. Hopefully I wont get smacked in the face by faith again. The higher you climb the deeper you fall. But if you never start climbing you will never reach the sky....

[bacon]

I used to think 20 rep squats were the shit....until Matsumi showed up and with 60 rep squats. Now I'm a loser again...

[graedy]

Yeah! This stuff is the shit. Gimme health and some years of constant training and I will be there too. Nothing beats crying for ya mama because you are sure you will die and then keep on going until you cant cry nomore . Btu this stuff is something I have to wait some time for....