[lena]

Originally Posted by graedy

I myself did some strict

- BO rows 2x7x87,5kg (193 lbs) [setsxrepsxweight] (one set pronated and one set supinated grip)

Felt good. And for everyone who does this great exercise as well: "Put some fucking weight on the bar!" If I can rep out almost 200lbs then everyone can!

hey! i love bent over rows, one of my favorite exercises (next to the chin up), glad yu like this not too popular exercise too

[graedy]

The truth is: I wanted her to leave me. She gave me great backup in my hard times so I could have never left her myself. But I just couldnt stand it that she saw me in this condition all the time and that she had to suffer. After she did it I felt fucked up at first. But later I felt relieved. I was so fucked up that I couldnt be be tender to her although I wanted to. There was my girlfriend. But I felt so bad that I didnt want to be touched. Although she always told that its not such a big problem, I put a lot of extra pressure on me. And once she was gone the pressure was gone as well. After we split up, it was me who didnt want to see her at first but she wanted to take care of me. Now its better for both of us. Love is never a straight line.

Went training with two friends again. Today I showed another freind frontsquats. He is surprisingly talented.
I myself did:

- Bo Rows 5x97,5kg (215 lbs)
- Benchpress 3x90 kg (198 lbs)
went very easy so I close gripped the fucker and did another rep. If the good condition keeps up I gonna go for the 100kg (220 lbs) on sunday. Thats a weight many gymrats have as a final goal train their metro way for it for many years and are proud as hell when they finally reach it. So just for fun I will try to do it without any training. Bodyweight is 78kg (172 lbs).

[graedy]

Played arround a bit in the weightroom today. Nothing heavy as I felt that my body just needs more rest. I have to really ease into this as I wasnt only not training for over year but really got my ass kicked hard (cortison, massive weightlosses, paranteral nutrition, lying in bed for weeks...). Still Im not in full remission and still have to regenerate my body. Because still if you look at my bloodwork you would consider me halfdead.
I dont complain. Theres nothing worse than selfpitty. But I have to remind myself this all the time so I dont overdo it. Lifting is life!

[graedy]

Got the green lights form the docs for a selfexperiment, I already started (one day before things went suddenly better). Maybe its was due to the antibiotics as written before. But as my condition keeps up and I dont take any antibiotics for 3 days now maybe its because of "the experiment". If things are still alright in a couple of weeks there is no doubt what is the reason for it. So cross your fingers

[bacon]

Good luck amigo

*crosses fingers, toes and eyes*

[Ted-P]

Good luck Graedy.

And Bacon, you frickin crack me up.

[graedy]

Thank you.
bacon is really funny. Especially if you cant stop imagine the dog which is his avatar, who is actually his dog and whos name is bacon (if I rember correctlly), sits there on the desk and pulls out all those jokes. So with even a dog crossing all the listed things for me, theres nothing that could happen to me but good things. I just cant stop the picture....

[graedy]

Things are getting worse again. Still quite alright. All I can do is wati and see how things develop. Wonder what King Kabuki might be doing.....

[Draft]

Just checking to see how things have been on your side of the fence. Looks like shit was going pretty good for a while.

Sorry to hear you've been feeling bad recently. Hope you get back on track real soon man.

[graedy]

Feeling better today. Not as good as the last couple of days but much better than yesterday.
Now I have some b and c plans on hand and feel quite alright know. Its really amazing how when you just keep going, although there seems to be no perspective, someday new possibilities just appear. Thanks all for pushing me. There will be a final victory. Someday.
Im in a sig

I will go for the 100kg bench today. Wish me luck as this would be a nice egoboost. And my ego didnt walk on the sunny side of life over the last few years. Some may wonder whats about the 20 rep goals in pull ups, chins and 21 kg DBOHP. But Im still too anemic. After 10 reps with any weight I start to gass. So I plan on doing some weighted pull ups as well today. Plus I wanna practice the muscle up every session now. If my colon feels good enough I will even do some squats. Be ready for some pathetic weight as the cortison (cushing syndrom) has eaten up all my legmuscles to a below chickenleg level