[_Sonic_]

I never wanted to make a thread but Im just interested what your suggestions are.

I drink since Im 17 (im 21 now). My best friend died 4 years ago and my grandma died a week ago. Over christmas time I decided to drink the living crap out of me. Im not the type of guy who talks about how bad I feel, or how bad I drink. If you dont know me you would think Im the happiest man alive and want to be your friend.

Im not a mood killer. I keep it all by myself. Sometimes when some friends are aksing to go out party I refuse...because Im already drunk as hell and unable to get my clothes on.

Especially over christmas time when you think about the past and future I feel somehow down. Because I share my past with my deceased friend and I dont want to think about it. So instead I drink to feel atleast a bit better. My parents dont know anything because I dont want them to know that I drink...they are heroes to me.

Sometimes at work people ask me if Im ok because my face has no color and my facial expression can be questioned as well...I lie to prevent some problems I might get. People tried to help me but I did drink those worries away in secret so that no1 notices.

I seriously cant imagine what Ill be like in 5 or even 10 years.

[Richmond_Hrvat]

Uh, I uh... damn.

[mcgorman]

the first step is admitting you have a problem...

The second step is to slow down your drinking

[_Sonic_]

Originally Posted by mcgorman

the first step is admitting you have a problem...

The second step is to slow down your drinking

I tried your second step for atleast 200 times. Somehow I cant get the trick done.
But Ill try, Ill try.

[mcgorman]

I guess I should expand and give that post more credibility. I drank heavily from the ages you mentioned, and at around the same age came to a similar conclusion. I enjoyed partying and going out as much as the next guy and when I was out I was often the life of the party.

It's a regular occurance around people your age, and you aren't at the age where continuing to drink is even going to reap irreversible consequences on your life.

Also... the very point that you so accurately describe the complexion of your face and the perception of hiding and how it feels makes me think you are over-romanticizing the whole experience.

In conclusion refer to above post

[_Sonic_]

Originally Posted by mcgorman

I guess I should expand and give that post more credibility. I drank heavily from the ages you mentioned, and at around the same age came to a similar conclusion. I enjoyed partying and going out as much as the next guy and when I was out I was often the life of the party.

It's a regular occurance around people your age, and you aren't at the age where continuing to drink is even going to reap irreversible consequences on your life.

Also... the very point that you so accurately describe the complexion of your face and the perception of hiding and how it feels makes me think you are over-romanticizing the whole experience.

In conclusion refer to above post

I drink almost every day. On weekends I drink alot...I mean I even have to think about god damn alcohol every time. I was hospitalized because of a heart condition I got from drinking the life outta me.

Im not even able to drink water because It tastes bad. I drink everyday...maybe a bottle of wine, lots of beers or a bottle of wodka. The last time I was drunk was 18 hours ago.

And I dont want to go to self-help groups or anything like that. I feel uncomfortable thinking about it.

[Blast D]

Originally Posted by _Sonic_

I drink almost every day. On weekends I drink alot...I mean I even have to think about god damn alcohol every time. I was hospitalized because of a heart condition I got from drinking the life outta me.

Im not even able to drink water because It tastes bad. I drink everyday...maybe a bottle of wine, lots of beers or a bottle of wodka. The last time I was drunk was 18 hours ago.

And I dont want to go to self-help groups or anything like that. I feel uncomfortable thinking about it.

You have to stop right now. Getting drunk one or a few more times before you decide to "slow down" or go cold turkey is only gonna be harder than if you decide RIGHT NOW to stop. Think positively and be thankful for everything you might have going right now. Tell your friends this, they can help you.

Weed might help too.

[Hamm]

You have to seek professional help, I know it is not easy to just quit, but you will be so much better off if you do.

My dad is 47 years old, been drinking since he was 17. He stopped drinking cold turkey about 4 months ago. I know not everyone can do it that way, but everyone can quit.

[DrSatanDracula]

Though it might seem odd, I suggest you take a dosage of LSD. Studies in the 50's showed that many alcoholics who had a hit of acid were cured of alcoholism by the result of their trips. I'd do it in the presence of a sober friend, though.

[questforfire]

Sounds like you need professional help

The death of your friend still lingers on inside your head. Try to get sober and seek out help in dealing with your problems and you'll be suprised what a clear mind will do to help you move on with your life.