Aggression while sparring/fighting

svoss03 · 05-04-2008, 12:40 AM

Since I don’t think any one I know would even begin to understand where I am coming from I thought I was on my own... Until I realized this forum would be a good place to ask. Awesome epiphany.

My fight game is aggressive. I was at a time, well accustomed to fighting in the street, a few times in what I thought was life or death. I am older and wiser now but this instinct is still alive in me and I am trying to control/harness my inner aggression. Some of you may understand what I am saying others will have no idea, hell maybe I really am alone on this? Those who do know what I am talking about might recall a time or two where it did not matter if you lived or died, what injuries you may sustain or what condition you were in after the fact. What mattered was taking out the enemy because they were your enemy.

I feel like there is a point of no turning back, a switch that gets turned on that I do not have any control over. Not that my skills go out the window, but I almost feel like I loose my mind. It is a great feeling. No fear, no pain, no thoughts, just action. It is when I am at my best, doing what I was born to do. Zen.

The problem for me is bringing this into sparring. I honestly don’t want to admit it because to some it would seem conceited, but I am afraid to let go for fear of what I would do. I’ve seen the consequences of my thoughtless actions and have hurt people in ways much worse than physical pain. On the other side of the coin, there are times when I need to be able to respond, counter and strike like I would if I were in a street fight or cage match. I need to be able to be more aggressive with some of my training partners but I don’t do it because I think they will push back and push me to the point where I snap.

I don’t know, it’s like a love hate thing. If I like you I don’t want to hurt you, so I don’t want to go there. If I don’t like you, then fine, lets get it on and FUCK YOU if you die.

Should I go see a shrink, let loose on my training partners and let them be the ones to decide if they should push any further or is there an answer.

Is there a way to harness uninhibitedly that inner demon and then learn to control it effectively or should I just let it out? I really feel like just saying fuck you if you cant hang but I have learned a thing or 2 over the years.

The reason this comes up is because one of my training partners has a hard time controlling his anger and power. He has recently pissed me off by taking it too hard to a few new guys and almost pushed me to that “snapping point” last time we sparred. I am glad though, because without these recent events I would not be asking for advice right now.

Any body else as fucked up in the head?

knoxthai23 · 05-04-2008, 01:03 AM

why do you have to give us whitebelts a bad rep

svoss03 · 05-04-2008, 01:17 AM

So I guess you are saying I should go see a shrink.

Rinksterk · 05-04-2008, 01:34 AM

Spar a seasoned pro. You crack them, they'll crack your head open. Good experience

svoss03 · 05-04-2008, 01:43 AM

Id rather get cracked in the head by a seasoned pro and learn a thing or two than to spar with a haymaker. I enjoy taking a few hits.

knoxthai23 · 05-04-2008, 01:52 AM

im just saying if you go apeshit on a guy there is repercussions. you have to control your emotions and not let them control you. i dont know if you should go see a shrink, but i think that if you want to go hard then you should tell your partner not just start going harder based on how hard you feel you are getting hit. Discuss it beforehand id say and then go from there. THat way if you do get popped you wont get angry because you agreed to go that hard same with your partner.

aries · 05-04-2008, 01:58 AM

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Originally Posted by Rinksterk

Spar a seasoned pro. You crack them, they'll crack your head open. Good experience

Yeah I agree just spar with people much better than you. It'll change your perspective on things! You'll either learn to reach a good level of control and not lose your head or get beat up with regularity. Eventually you'll have to retire from injuries or change your approach. Aggression is good, controlled aggression is better.

legshot420 · 05-04-2008, 04:02 AM

Controlled rage, brother. You gotta bottle that shit up and let it explode at very precise moments. Until the time is right, you keep it under check.

fightingrabbit · 05-04-2008, 05:55 AM

lol. hate motherfuckers like you in sparring. always taking everything up the ass.

svoss03 · 05-04-2008, 10:08 AM

LOL.

I guess I didn't explain it right. I am a very good sparring partner be it against people that could wipe the mat with my face or a brand new student. We always agree on the terms before hand and don’t loose my cool. Like I said, recently I was pushed to the point where I felt like letting go cuz the mother fucker was taking it too hard to a few new guys as well as going much harder than we agreed. He was out of line but I kept my composure.

I don’t have any issue with suppressing my anger and don’t retaliate out of anger.

Some may understand some may not. IMO there is another level of aggression well above what I am able to control at this point so I don’t let it out and that is what I want to learn to use appropriately.