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Originally Posted by ForeverFiending
Yea, I think you should definately go find someone to discuss these feelings with (aka shrink) so that you can understand yourself better/ deal with it better.
No, you DO NOT allow yourself to "snap" sparring. Losing control is NOT a desired trait in a fighter. If you do it, you will get your ass kicked out of every gym. It is NOT personal. Your idiot friend will get his in sparring. Guys who spar like assholes get treated like assholes by better fighters eventually. This sounds like it has very little to do with HIM and everything to do with YOU. NO, you should NOT want to have control over your demon and let him out sometimes. Your "demon" you are talking about IS your enemy. There is nothing good about that feeling that you claim feels good. What REALLY feels good is knowing you have the ability to defend yourself and complete control of who you are and what you're doing. I'm sorry to hear that you have been in situations of life or death, that is tough and it's good you made it through, but that is the past. Require more from yourself... and if you can't get a grip than consider leaving the gym until you do. It's funny how all kinds of crazy inner stuff surfaces in the ring... lol
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