[Das Uberdog]

Originally Posted by Lubaolong

You can't look down on me when I'm so far above you. I never said or ever even somewhat considered killing myself. I was only somewhat bummed that I had to kill myself to make as much money as my sister. I'm out here worrying how I'm going to pay for a million dollar house and afford a new lambo while some of you are distressed over finding a dry cardboard box to sleep in. It's funny how people of different social classes have different worries in life, don't you think?

yeah you're right, it is very hard for a mere peon like me to look down on something as grand as this:

Originally Posted by Lubaolong

I already have. After my grandmother died and I started freaking out I talked with some professionals, got some medication.. and I'm doing better now. I'm still very stressed and worried about my future.

These things are easy for you to say because you aren't living here in my life. The closest people in my life (my grandparents) are gone. I'm not that close with my parents. I feel like I have no one except my wife. I don't want to disappoint them and I want my family to have everything I can give to them. After my grandparents died, we spent a week or so staying at my sisters house. Going from her lifestyle back to mine is horrible. My sister just moved, built a $1 million dollar office building, and a $800k house. And in her area, that's a HUGE house. It's almost 10k sq ft. She has her own practice, thousands of patients, her and her fiance work a normal 9-5 job, sometimes she works a little later.. and they make a shit load of money. They blow more money a year on useless crap that I can make. I'm busting my tail doing jobs I hate with all my being, working 60+ hours a week sometimes, trying to make $200k. Spending a week living with her, doing the things they do, shopping like they shop.. then coming back to my lifestyle.. it's really hard. I don't have any money to blow. I'm finished working for right now and I'm trying my best to save to buy a semi decent house that's not falling apart when we move and not go into debt while we take 3 years off to go to school. I don't know if we'll ever get where I want to be. Maybe I'm destined for mediocracy.

Originally Posted by Lubaolong

I very well could be, if not dead. This didn't bother me so much before, but with recent events and things my family has said, it is eating me up. I see only one option for me right now, finish this degree, get to Taiwan, start the translation work up I've been doing, and a virtual gold farming operation in China I was doing last year. If I can get to Taiwan with a steady, good paying job, I think I can do something. If not, I might just jump off a bridge or something.

I'm not looking for attention. I'm just really stressed and frustrated. Sorry to bring you all my troubles if you don't give a shit. I'll probably read over this in the morning and regret typing all this.

*sniffle sniffle* you fuckin' whiny little shit.