[graedy]

- Strict OHP 3x3x62,5 [not good]
- BO rows 5x90kg/5x92,5kg/5x95kg/5x97,5kg/ [supinated] 5x100kg
- Plyo jumps
- Walking lunges 2x24x40kg [I cant breath!]

Ran out of time and had to go. This workout was way from strong. My BW has dropped to 80kg. I feel sick as I use those antibiotics way too long now (but I depend on them at the moment so theres nothing I can do about it). My appetite is down. But I try to relax. No gains? I someday wrote that this gonna be journey which will sometimes require one step forward followed by two steps back. Recentlly it were a lot of steps forward.
I never stepped into a ring but from what I read about it, one of the most important things is to stay relaxed. Relaxed when under fire and relaxed when things dont work the way you want them to work.
MY training suits me well. I know that. The only thing I could do is do even less from time to time. My nutrtion could be "better". But its the best I can get under those circumstances. So I do what I can do. The Tacrolimos is "on the way". If it helps, some parameters will shift and so will my eating habits and later my traininghabits (e.g. when the HB is up again). And then progress wil come again. But so far Im doing my best. And maybe progress will come now or it wont for a while. But the worst thing I can do is panic. Or hate myself for it. Doubt myself all the time. I question myself. And the answer to any question I ask myself about wether I do what I can to reach my traininggoals without sacrificing my goal of feeling as good as possible with the disease and trying to beat it is: YES!
Yes, I do give my best. And if thats the result - so be it.