[graedy]

The truth is: I wanted her to leave me. She gave me great backup in my hard times so I could have never left her myself. But I just couldnt stand it that she saw me in this condition all the time and that she had to suffer. After she did it I felt fucked up at first. But later I felt relieved. I was so fucked up that I couldnt be be tender to her although I wanted to. There was my girlfriend. But I felt so bad that I didnt want to be touched. Although she always told that its not such a big problem, I put a lot of extra pressure on me. And once she was gone the pressure was gone as well. After we split up, it was me who didnt want to see her at first but she wanted to take care of me. Now its better for both of us. Love is never a straight line.

Went training with two friends again. Today I showed another freind frontsquats. He is surprisingly talented.
I myself did:

- Bo Rows 5x97,5kg (215 lbs)
- Benchpress 3x90 kg (198 lbs)
went very easy so I close gripped the fucker and did another rep. If the good condition keeps up I gonna go for the 100kg (220 lbs) on sunday. Thats a weight many gymrats have as a final goal train their metro way for it for many years and are proud as hell when they finally reach it. So just for fun I will try to do it without any training. Bodyweight is 78kg (172 lbs).